NeverEnding
It’s neverending. This road I’m forced to be on. There’s no dead end, no left or right turns. It’s just a straight road to nowhere.
My mind is a mess of words and images that I want so badly to erase from my memory. I can’t even tell what I’m seeing anymore. Words twist until they’re unrecognizable and I no longer understand whats being said. Images fade and appear and blend till its just a blur of colors.
My head is punding painlessly but I want to cry because I can’t feel it. I know my stomach churns with each and every insult hurled my way but I don’t feel it, so my face remains blank.
It’s what keeps me sane, this pain I want to feel. It lets me know that I’m still alive and capable of feeling something and not just the numbness I succumb to. But the confusion that is my mind makes it hard to tell fantasy from reality.
This facade I’ve worked so hard to perfect is cracking. Slowly, the smile is fading only to be replaced with a permanent frown. Tears are forming and forcing their way out. I’m getting lost in painful memories but yet, I continue walking down this road.
